Yesterday evening was my first on call for oncology block..actually,it was not really about oncology, I just followed one of the FY1 to do her oncall..However,this time was a bit different from previous on call that I had, because we only covered the patients in the wards (we covered almost 10 wards..huhu)

i met this FY1,named Zara in oncology ward. actually she is in Haematology team, but haematology and oncology patients share the same ward here..zara is very sweet, polite but quite determined lady. I spoke to her in the ward yesterday afternoon while waiting for the consultant. I told her that we are supposed to observe FY1 doing their job as a preparation for next year job. then she invited me to join her for oncall..i’m quite lucky,hehe

we stay in the hospital from 5-10pm..actually it was a quiet oncall,not many things happened last night. the things that we did were cannulation,chased blood, reviewed sick patients, persuaded one of the patient that wanted to self-discharge to stay in and prescribed warfarin.the most challenging thing that we did last night was cannulation on one of the old lady in the ward. it was really difficult. we have tried more than 10 times to get her blood, just to test for U&E..we’ve tried almost all the vein on both arms, some vein we’ve tried for few times. one trial on radial artery. all failed. at last, we got the blood, taken from brachial artery. I’m sure it was painful. we can see from her face, but she kept persuade us to continue. because it must be done, if not by us. then other doctor would come later at night to get the blood. she is really brave and patient, bless her..

Looking at the things that we did were not that exciting, but i enjoyed the time with zara.She told me about her experiences as FY1,since the first day she started working in this hospital ..it was scary!!huhu…i thought that people wont expect that much from you since you just start working, we will learn with time…but she was required to cover the  ward by her own on the very first day she started working as other registrar and sho started working one day later..huhu.. i told her, if me. I would rather run and disappear ..unfortunately, I forgot that we have bleep..hahha..what a thought!

i realized that once we started working, we have responsibility on what we do. of course i wouldn’t run..emm.i think we should leave it until next year, just wait and see..haha

I think the most important thing for now is study and pass the exm..

For d first time in 2 mths i live in cripss..at last i hav a neighbour..not saying that i’m keen to hav one,but thats d way rooms were arranged in here,2 rooms will share one bathroom,with our wardrobe in the middle between 2 rooms..
i havent meet my neighbour yet,d one that i’ll share d bathroom with..but can hear him snoring..sound like hagrid in harry potter to me..
nway,as long as he is ok,not too friendly as i dont think i’ll comfortable to share bathroom with very friendly guy..then it should b ok..

Now i realized that fasting during summer really,really challenging..we fasting from 3.30am in the morning til 8.30pm at night..that means we only allowed to eat for 6 hrs at night,minus 2 hrs teraweeh and sleeping time?? and most of the time when i wake up for sahur,my stomach still full from break fast earlier..huhu..i love my food!! Astaghfirullahalazim..y am i thinking about food at this time..i should focus more on ibadah, and mayb try to lose some weight??positive2..huhu..nway,i’m doing night shift at the moment..which actually make it worse bcoz i’m rushing all d time..complaining again..haihh..nway,it just for 3 days..n i able to sleep thoughout d day..n d most important thing is i have 4 days off later..which i bet w can get this in msia..bersyukur plzz..

Ive started F2 job with obs n gynae rotation 2 wks ago.At first i was quite excited,I’m F2 now!!feel a bit senior,although i dont think my knowledge up to the standard yet,huhu..well,everyday is a learning day,and this rotation is totally different from medicine and surgery..i’m glad that i have chance to work in this field..nway,i’ve started with night shift!! luckily everything went quite well..everyone alive n nothing chaos happened in the middle of the night..i was really grateful that i was working with understanding registrar and the nights were not that busy..
apparently SHO night need to review all referral from A&E and cover gynae emergency ward..which most of the cases were early pregnancy complication,bleeding, ?ectopic,miscarriage etc..and as expected all patient need speculum examination..the last time i read about obs n gynae was a year ago,when i was revising for final exm,and d last speculum examination was 2 years ago on patient under GA!!luckily the SPR kindly agree to supervise me until i comfortable to do it myself..then i’m back to the ward for 3 days,and next week another set of nights begin..hopefully this coming shift not that busy,so that i can perform terawih prayer during the shift 🙂

here i am..again after few months disappeared from this blog..i realized that i have so many disappoinment in these few months..started with surgical job..which i could not cope with,anyway its already towards the end..i only have 4 more nights to do..and i’m done with surgery,which is a good thing,as i did not enjoy this at all although i have learnt so many things in this rotation..done with work stuff..
the other disappoinment..is this blog!!i havent update this blog for months,huhuu..until today..
then,my motivation book,which I havet finish reading after almost a year started reading it..i should just go to motivation course,save me from reading books..
then..my gym workout,which not really up to my expectation..the only reason I joined the gym is because I love food!!and I rather exercise to keep in shape than control my food intake,huhuu.. this morning,after 1 hour on cross trainer,I only burned 284 calories,thats not even equal to 2 millie cookies that I had before I went to d gym..still could not believe this..there must b sth wrong with the machine..will burn more calories tomorrow

cant believe i’ve left this blog for more than a year now,huhu..nway,i’m back!! after reading a few pages of motivational book,i realized that i need to do something useful in my life..starting with this blog..hehhe..i will make this blog as a medium to share important events in my daily life with people that i trust..family and friends especially my mum and sister,although they not even know about this blog yet..i’ll let them know about this blog once i post more things in it,and hopefully by that time writing blog already part of my habit..

I’ve decided to write this blog again actually as a reflection on my daily life..people said ‘everyday is a learning day’ ,but we wont learn anything until we have a close look at it and make some effort to learn something from it..thats what i’m trying to do..by writing it in a blog,i hope i can see the thing or event clearer,and learn something from it..and of course i appreciate all comment or opinion from everyone..i have quite good anger management,so dont hesitate to give any unpleasant comment..haha

ok..thats all for tonight..
will continue tomorrow..